.Saturday, May 28, 2011 ' 3:40 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
My thoughts~
For the upcoming days, she will be having a very hectic life. Not much spare time for her to meet up. Therefore, i brought myself to her on Friday night. Just wanna see her in person and brought her some snacks to motivate her for revision. She once mentioned that her mum loves KungFu Panda (KP) and asked about the KP cup we had after movie. Due to my stupidity, i threw away after forgotten to pass her when she left. So i gave her the cup that night too by getting another popcorn combo :) I have been comtemplating for the past 1 week should i do this. What's always on my mind was scene that she would refuse to come out which i have to place those stuff on her doorstep. But things turned out otherwise, I am glad that she agreed to come out and what's more? We went down to her voideck to slack :D From my view, i think she is a active person in nature who wish to try everything, but she prefer not to embarrass herself. Seeing her abashed expression trying very hard to balance on bicycle and her occassionally smile really made my heart melts. Lastly, it's the first time i saw her raw face without makeup.
I wanna tell you, girl in my eyes you are beauitful with or without makeup. You have scored 100% for how you are in my heart so the next time you are with me, you dont have to concern too much on your appearrance. :) Hope to see your face carry smile more often, it works better than makeup :D
~*Chase*~™
. ' 3:27 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
26 May
Time flies today during work as I have to do all the works alone as Yusof was absence from work. Moreover, August renewal listing has arrived. Luckily, it was not that much comapared to last month. Went to Raffles City Shopping Centre CaiLing to kill time while waiting for my poly friends to reach CityLink Mall. In the meantime, got myself GongCha and Cheese fries. 5min later, received a message from Sathish that they will be heading to Scape for Sakae Sushi. First word that came across my mind is DIE! They will be having sushi buffet again and i am already eating =x Trained to Somerset to meet them. On the way to Scape, someone was helping their friend to celebrate her 18th Birthday and requested Sathish, Yusof and I to take a photo with her blind-folded. Well, this is a fresh way of doing it i suppose? We agreed to it. Spent 2 hours in the restaurant. Didnt eat as much compared to the previous few buffets.
Our group went separate ways later on, half of them went to drink and the rest went home. Home about 10+
27 May
For the whole day, i didnt have much time to slack as i have to sort out the August renewal listing. Quoting has to been done after sorting. It took me the whole day to get it done. Finally home at 6+. For the past 1 week, i have been planning something for her although it nothing amazing but it's the thoughts that count. Around 8+, cycled to her block just to meet her. I hope it's a surprise to her that i appearred outside her house. Didnt expect to spend the next 1hour with her as i thought she will be going back home straight after getting my stuff. :) Went to ride with BoonPin after sending her home. BoonPin received a call from an uncle who we used to play badminton together asking him out for a drink. Went to blk 740+ just to entertain him awhile before cycling to Yishun Dam. Slacked till 1+ Home.
~*Chase*~™
. ' 1:56 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
21 May
Suddenly felt very bored on a weekend. Perhaps, for the past few weeks, i has been spending my weekend with her. Did not have a chance to meet her as she will be bringing her mum for belated mother's day dinner. In the night, went to ride with Andy and company to Woodlands waterfront. One of Andy's friend specially made us some sandwiches :D After much slacking around the park, time to head to the jetty. Only left the place around 12+ Headed over to 888 plaza for supper and back to Yishun. Just when I thought I can finally go home and have a good shower, Andy received a call from his friend that his wrist has been fractured. Rushed over to the place of accident. He was lying on the ground. Sent him to KTPH via cab. The rest of us help to bring his bike over there. Stayed at the hospital for about 1hour to only know that the operation will not be carried out immediately. At a result, all of us went home.
22 May
Spent my Sunday noon watching random movies online. About evening, headed over to Changi Airport with CaiLing to fetch a group of my friends back from China. A big thanks to them for getting me a box of Tai Yang Bing. Home about 10
23 May
Today’s work deal with lots of stapler stuff. Got to sort out a stack of paper and staple them. It took me the whole afternoon to get them done. In the evening, went to jog around Yishun. Home about 10.
24 May
Took a day off from work for Dental appointment. Hate to go NDC because everytime i only stayed less than 10 min over there which i can earn $50 if i go to work. In the afternoon, went to Plaza Singapura with SiHui and slacked at esplanade area. Managed to know more about what girls are thinking. But still there are alot of views and ultimately, it's up to me to decide.
25 May
There were lots of things to do today at work. Feeling quite down too. Wonder whats wrong with me? But managed to pull through the day. Use computer during the night.
~*Chase*~™
.Saturday, May 21, 2011 ' 3:13 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
Past few days...
My mood of the day depends on someone who holds a special place in my heart. I guess she didn't realise how much it will affect me. Remember that 3 days ago, there was a disruption in M1 mobile service? It was the first time my friend said that i was hardworking. Reason being to keep myself busy so that my mind wont be making wild imagination. However, it's still hard to prevent myself from thinking of her. Often, my friends question me why am i so quiet. My standard answer will be tired to conceal the truth of missing her. At the end of the day, i am glad it was only technical problem from M1.
2 days before
My mood was alright during the day. However, during the night, she went to have movie with her friends. This didn't affect me much either. Waited for her to reply patiently for 2 hours +. The next one hour really makes me think a lot. Here's what came across my mind. From what i observed while i was out with her for a movie, after movie, her phone will instantly appear on her hand. On that night, i was hoping she would immediately reply my message after movie ended. This anticipation did not become reality. Instead, she only replied me when she reached home. The moment i received her message, i instantly became awake. Started to think about what's the reason for her to reply when she is only home. One of the reason i hope to be the least likely would be that she was out with a guy she has feeling for. As a result, she would avoid her phone to create a better impression. Her last message for the day was a dilemma. Should i be happy or sad?
It's has been nearly a week since i last met her. Initially, i won't have the chance to see her yesterday. Got to thank her birthday friend for leaving early. Asked out for a movie to have an extra glance on her. Movie was 2 hours ahead of the time we met. Had to find something to entertain her. Bought a deck of poker cards and had a session of Big 2 under a block near Yishun Safra. During the game, of course we will have conversation. However, sometimes silence to my words makes me sad. I really hope that i can changed to be a more interesting guy so that there would be many topic between us to talk. It's 11.35, time for us to head back to Yishun 10. The movie is a horror film but it doesn't seems scary enough to see her freaked out expression. Same as the previous time, no more public transport after movie ended. On our way back to Sembawang on foot, encountered a barking dog across the road. I can tell she was very afraid of it. Tried my best to calm her down and assured her nothing will happened.
From here i wish to tell you no matter what happen, i will be the guy to stand by your side to protect you. Wont allow you to get bullied by anyone else. I know it's hard for you to trust a guy due to your last relationship. Although it had left a scar on you, i wish i can be a tattoo to cover up your scar, stick to you and never be apart...
"I won't give my heart to anyone, but if you're brave enough, you can try to steal it" A sentence by you. I know i am not a professional thief to steal but with my sincerity, i hope i can get your heart not by stealing but earning it. Love you~
~*Chase*~™
. ' 2:31 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
19 May
Work as usual in the day... Did not go out in the night either. Boring life.
20 May
Work again... I wondered why time passed so slow today... After work, walked to Orchard Centre to have a cup of Gong Cha. Slacked awhile till 6+ before heading back to Yishun. Went to GV to get a pair of tickets for a midnight movie, Insidious. Met her at 9.20 at Yishun Mrt and headed to Northpoint for awhile. Headed over to 600+ to slack. 11.35 went back to watch movie. Sent her home.
~*Chase*~™
.Wednesday, May 18, 2011 ' 9:54 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
18 May
Waiting for someone who mean something to you is the worst feeling ever. Due to M1 service disruption island wide, I have lost communication with her for the whole afternoon. Not only that i am missing her for the whole noon, her safety is my priority concern too. About 4+, finally got some news of her on twitter! Isn't it a beautiful coincidence that she just created twitter account yesterday. And now it served as a medium to reestablish our communication back? :D My mood finally lightened up to hear her disappearance was all due to M1's fault. It has been 4 days since i last saw her :( Really wish i could see her tomorrow or Saturday... Looking forward to her hair new colour too! :D From 5+ till 7+ we were communicating via msn as the mobile service was still down. Spent my evening watching 2 episodes of Drunken to love you. I am surprised she is watching this drama too :) And now i am waiting for her reply again as she MIA-ed again... =x
~*Chase*~™
. ' 9:21 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
17 May
It's a public holiday for me which i am free from work for a day :) But felt so empty spending my day at home. Thought I would be able to spend my time by her side. In the end, she went out with her sister. Well... I still have a lot of chances to meet her in near future :D Started to watch a new Taiwan Idol drama recommended by my friend called 醉後決定愛上你. She mentioned about a movie called Confessions, therefore went to watch :) Hope that this would help to generate more topics for our conversation. Although couldnt spend my day with her today, i was still on cloud 9 for a while when i came to know that she did read my blog =D However, happiness was only momentarily. Due to some context i posted which leads to her discontentment. I thought she was angry with me, thus ignoring me. I was only relieved to find out she fell asleep after two hours which explain her absence of sms =x In the evening, BoonPin asked me out to chill. Went to Pasir Ris to slack along the beach with Mc Donald and Soya Bean. Feel so convenient to have a car around. If i only am rich to own a car... :( Home about 11
~*Chase*~™
.Tuesday, May 17, 2011 ' 3:51 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
15 May
Nothing much happened on Sunday. Did not have a chance to meet her for dinner as she was settling it at home =x In the evening, went out to ride with Melvin at TPK. Did not ride much as my knee was subjected to impact soon after i ride. Home about 9+
16 May
Work again. I guess i am being blacklisted by the head on that level already. Last week got caught slacking in the room. But the fact was i had no task given to me. Soon, my supervisor came in to hand over some assignments to me. According to my friends, the head came into the room seeking for me again. However, i was sitting outside. Need to be extra careful next time when i am skiving. Did not go out in the night. Spent my night waiting for her reply till she headed to bed :)
~*Chase*~™
.Sunday, May 15, 2011 ' 11:24 AM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
Expectation leads to disappointment... I had never really know the meaning of this phrase until recently. People who are close to me know that i am someone who will only fight a battle i have confidence in. These short few weeks i have been spending times with her on almost every weekends and some of the weekdays. Time felt stagnant being with her. Outsiders' perspective of us would be a sweet couple. Of course with those pictures which i believe some of you have seen and some intimacy. It's naturally for me to think that she has feeling for me to a certain extent. It's on the wedding night that i really felt that we are really couple. Sitting on the bay of MBS admiring the night scenery of city with no gap between us. My arm went around her back and rested somewhere on her thigh. If a girl has no feeling towards a guy, would she even allow the action i did? Definitely is a NO! Unless she is a flirt but i can swear, from my eyes i can tell she is not. Her character is shy towards strangers and quiet if you aren't really close with her. This doesn't even fit into the category of a flirt. That very morning, i sent her back home. Wished to declared my feeling to her based on the clues i received. However, fear always lingers around my mind. Some negative clues such as her forgetfulness to reply my message and her "uninterested to continue conversation" short reply sometimes received from her really made me to have a second thought. I guess forgetfulness is one of features that attracted me, she seems so cute whenever she have the "sotong" expression trying to recap something. As for the short reply, i understand that she is a quiet girl by nature. In the end, i could only see her leaving as the lift door closes. 4 days passed and i finally got to see her again. This time round, i tried to gather more clues from her. She was on the swing with my phone and i was just be her side squatting on the ground. I attempted to lie on her shoulder and back and there was no resistance from her. Smell of her hair and jacket is pleasant. What was on my mind was hoping time would just pause for the both of us. But still it reached 10.30 which signals for her to go home. This time round, i am sure she will accept my confession. But "I prefer to stay single" from her really pierced through my heart. The awkward moment ends with the help of the lift alarm as the door stayed open for quite a while. I looked onto the bright side comforting myself that she is just not ready for another relationship yet. 2 days passed and we met again. If a girl, doesn't really have feeling for a guy, would she even agree to go out with him again after the cat has been let out of the bag? Majority of cases would be avoidance from the guy so that a false hope would not be portraited to the guy. On that night, walked our way home from Yishun to Sembawang, throughout the journey, i was determined to understand her relationship background more and what her mind was thinking. To summarise the whole conversation, her most hurtful sentence was "don't wait for me ba". I can say love is stubborn, despite hearing that, i was still determine to wait for her and hopefully one day, my perseverance would touch her. Walked my way home and the route seems insanely long. I guess i am just too bothered by her comment. But at least, we are still as closed as we used to be. Maybe one day we may advanced to another stage. Love is just like playing a chess game. The right move has to be executed in order to win the game. I guess i was just too rush about winning her heart which screwed the whole thing up. I guess since we are still close means i have a chance of playing a second set of game? A less aggressive move must be made so that she wont feel pressured being out with me. These 2 days must have really caught her off guard to hear such words from my mouth. We may be meeting today, i will still treat her like my girlfriend despite it's only a one sided love.
If you happen to read my blog, this message is for you. My feeling for you is genuinely true. All my sacrifices are not pretentious but from the bottom of my heart. Just wanna say I love you <3
~*Chase*~™
. ' 10:23 AM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
11 May
Nothing much at work today. Most of the time has been slacking. In the evening, went out to ride with Melvin at TPK. Home about 11
12 May
It's Thursday which means her CA is over. After work, went home and washed up before heading to Sun Plaza to have dinner with her in Thai Express. She ordered a steamboat with quite a variety of dishes to choose from whereas i ordered honey chicken fried rice. The portion was really little... Later on went to a park in Sembawang which has 2 swings. It's my first time seeing her smile so sweet while enjoying on the swing. Slacked over there till 10.30 and walked her back home. What happened next really was a test for my courage. With no more hesitation under the lift lobby, i confessed to her. It did not turn out smoothly. The awkward moment i was in it was filled with a mixed feeling of relieved and sadness. However, her indirect answer still gave me hope. But i think it is just a way how my heart comfort myself.
13 May
Wasn't really in a good mood to work as it was still pondering over the stuff that happened yesterday. Tired was just an excuse to cover my weakness to people i don't wish to disclose. In the end, it's still hard to keep it to myself. To lighten my heavyhearted feeling, i shared my problem with CaiLing. Did not have a chance to meet her in the evening as she said there will be nothing to do. Therefore, it's another depressing night for me.
14 May
Woke up early in the morning about 7 so that my passport can be renewed at Singpost to avoid long queue. However, none of us brought our passport and had to travel back and forth. The passport was finally settle at 11+. It's a long wait for me from 7 till 3+ to finally see her first message of the day. My mood changed in a twinkle of an eye when she agreed to watch movie with me later on. Met around 8 at Yishun Mrt station and went to Ishi Mura to have dinner. Proceed to have Yishun 10 to purchased tickets for Priest. It's a midnight show, therefore, we had 2 hours of free time, went to Yishun Safra as she wanted to play arcade. However, it was such a long time since i last been there and it has been closed down. =x Went to Yishun park to play swing instead. I guess she really has a thing with swing :) Still have an hour of time left, went to slack at 925. Finally, it's 11.35. Did not really enjoy the movie not because the movie sucks to the core. Throughout the movie, my mind was having battle to deciding whether i should place my arm over to her shoulder or not. In the end, i did nothing... The movie priest i would advise my friend not to watch. Overall, i only rate 1/5. Movie ended and by then, there were no more transport to Sembawang. Walked ourselves back to Sembawang. Halfway through saw Yishun Columbarium, we dared each other to go in to have a look. Ended up she was only braved enough to walked in 5m away from the main gate. Continued our journey back to Sembawang. Broached her many questions about why she wish to remain single and what are my chance to be with her, what does she thinks of me all those related questions. At the end of the day, she told me not to wait for her. This is a killer answer to me. My mood really sunk but to have to keep up the appearance i am fine. I guessed i asked her too much questions on that night. I will not give up on her. Hopefully, one day i will be able to touched her heart :')
~*Chase*~™
.Wednesday, May 11, 2011 ' 7:32 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
6 May
Work as usual, did work that were supposed to be done on next week to kill time. As a result, i will have no more work for Monday as my supervisor will be on leave too. In the night, went to ride with Gerald. Not much riding though as i was tired. Cant wait for tomorrow to see her! Home about 11+
7 May
Initial plan of the day was to watch movie before proceeding to Bro'ex wedding dinner. However, she was still asleep till 3+. By the time she woke up, didnt have much time for a movie. Therefore, we only met at 6.15 to go Jurong Safra together. Before heading there, went to Jurong point to get bubble tea. Was kind of lost when i reached the venue and saw a different bride!?!? Went to customer service to query about it only to know that there were 2 wedding dinner held in that safra that night. Waited for almost an hour for the dinner to start. Took photos and play games with her to entertain ourselves in the meanwhile. Guest started to fill up the ballroom around 8 and finally started at 8.20 Cant really finish the food on that night as 3 person were absent on our table. After the dinner, headed to marina square to catch a midnight movie, fast and furious 5. Tickets were selling fast, therefore, could only get the front row seats =x After movie, was eager to know the General Election result. Was glad that Opposition managed to obtain more seats in the parliament this year. Went to slack outside Marina Bay Sands and get to know more about her past. Tonned till the first train. Went back to Sembwang to have breakfast before sending her back home. Wish to tell her those 3 words, but it seems to be the hardest thing i ever do in my life =x
8 May
Did not have a chance to have dinner with her tonight as she had to rush with her revision to prepared for next week CA. In the evening, went to paternal grandmother house to celebrate mother's day. Back home and went to slack with SiewJun as she wanna buy starbucks to chill. Home about 11+
9 May
I can tell all of you that, today i was paid to surf internet!!! Touch none of the things related to policy. =x In the evening, met up with Andy and HaoJun and cycled to Punngol Jetty. Journey to destination to about 45min but back in 25min. Home about 11+
10 May
Nothing much to do for work... In the evening, planned to stay home, however, around 9+ BoonPin called me out to slack as he was driving. Went to get some snacks over Old Sembawang Road and headed down to Sembawang Beach. Home about 11+
~*Chase*~™
.Thursday, May 5, 2011 ' 10:20 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
2 May
Lots of change to the plan of the day. Initially wanted to watch movie with her but changed to Saturday. Therefore, changed to having dinner with her but got changed again as her mother has made soup that has been boiling for hours. In the end, only accompany her to Sun Plaza to make some transaction. Trained to Yishun to get some bites. Made our way to Yishun park as there are swings. However, it was occupied throughout our presence by children. Was afraid she was bored, lent her my phone to entertain her. I really hope time will freeze while i was with her. About 7, time for her to head back home. Took bus with her to Sembawang. It will be another 5 days before i can see her again =x
3 May
Work work work as usual... My mind just can't stop thinking of her =x Time passed slowly while waiting for her message... Home
4 May
Work again but something unusual, was posted to another unit to do sorting and filing. It was no sorting out 58 sets of paper, punching hole and finally file them. My fingers were swollen due to excessive locking and unlocking of the files. Time flies doing all these stuff. Went to Peninsular to buy a black jeans. Back to Yishun to buy dye. Scurried back home and got my bicycle out to trim my hair. Fortunately, the salon was still open. Home. My pants got splashed by all sort of shit =x
5 May
Hmm today was a slack day for me. After lunch, i didnt really have much thing left to do. Has been surfing EDMW and facebook throughout the day. =x Seow was very envious of me as i was just right in front of him seeing him slogging all the way HAHHA! Finally i can go home at 5.20. Went out to ride awhile as i was too bored at home. Darn it! I slipped off my tailwhip again -.- Home about 9+
~*Chase*~™
.Monday, May 2, 2011 ' 1:22 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
28 Apr
After sorting out a group of policy, there were still others to key into data base. Managed to spend the whole day doing this. After work, accompanied CaiLing to Plaza Singapura as she wanted to buy her friend Capitaland Mall voucher. Home about 6+ Rot at home in the night
29 Apr
Had been dealing with Junior Protection Plan for the whole day. After nearly one month, i finally had a proper lunch as there was a company lunch that afternoon. It was the first time i tasted broccoli without the taste of disgust. Overall, it was a good buffet. Was only free about 4+. After work, walked to bugis to have Koi Ice cream milk tea. Trained to Chinatown to meet GuoHui for my F&N pay. Back to Yishun to meet up with ZhanQi, Andy and QungYing. Headed to a place called Simpang between Bedok and Tenah Merah to have dinner. As usual, i will order maggie goreng pattaya. There were more chicken than maggie sia haha. After dinner, didnt have any plan. In the end, headed over to ZhanQi house to play Mahjong. Before reaching his house, we went to fetch JiaWei over as we were lack of one player. Play 2 rounds of mahjong till 8am the next day. First round i managed to won over $6 but lost $4.50 for the second round due to fatigue and lost of interests already.
The picture below shows a hand i got. Managed to get most of the flowers :D
30 Apr
Walked home from ZhanQi's house and washed up. Slept from 9 to 11+. Woke up and use computer. About 3, went down to accompany her for lunch. As most of the fast food outlets were full, we turned to foodcourt. Had Mee Hoon Kway for lunch. Still had much time left, therefore, went to Mr Bean to get some ice cream and drinks :) Time flies it's 5pm time for her to head back to work :( Headed to grandmother house for a mother's day celebration with grandmother. There were a wide spectrum of food available however, i did not eat much. Left about 9 and went to slack with SiewLing. Chatting with her makes me understand girls better. Home about 1+ Seriously lacking of sleep these few days
1 May
Same routine as yesterday, about 3 headed down to accompany her for lunch again. This time round we had Long John Silver for lunch. After lunch, walked around the mall to kill time. About 5 she report back to work. However, in less than 10min, she came out to slack with me again HAHAH! Slacked for another 30min before going back again. Headed back home to send my father to airport. Spent about 2 hours there and home. Feeling damn shag that night slept 12.30.
~*Chase*~™
