.Sunday, May 15, 2011 ' 10:23 AM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
11 May
Nothing much at work today. Most of the time has been slacking. In the evening, went out to ride with Melvin at TPK. Home about 11
12 May
It's Thursday which means her CA is over. After work, went home and washed up before heading to Sun Plaza to have dinner with her in Thai Express. She ordered a steamboat with quite a variety of dishes to choose from whereas i ordered honey chicken fried rice. The portion was really little... Later on went to a park in Sembawang which has 2 swings. It's my first time seeing her smile so sweet while enjoying on the swing. Slacked over there till 10.30 and walked her back home. What happened next really was a test for my courage. With no more hesitation under the lift lobby, i confessed to her. It did not turn out smoothly. The awkward moment i was in it was filled with a mixed feeling of relieved and sadness. However, her indirect answer still gave me hope. But i think it is just a way how my heart comfort myself.
13 May
Wasn't really in a good mood to work as it was still pondering over the stuff that happened yesterday. Tired was just an excuse to cover my weakness to people i don't wish to disclose. In the end, it's still hard to keep it to myself. To lighten my heavyhearted feeling, i shared my problem with CaiLing. Did not have a chance to meet her in the evening as she said there will be nothing to do. Therefore, it's another depressing night for me.
14 May
Woke up early in the morning about 7 so that my passport can be renewed at Singpost to avoid long queue. However, none of us brought our passport and had to travel back and forth. The passport was finally settle at 11+. It's a long wait for me from 7 till 3+ to finally see her first message of the day. My mood changed in a twinkle of an eye when she agreed to watch movie with me later on. Met around 8 at Yishun Mrt station and went to Ishi Mura to have dinner. Proceed to have Yishun 10 to purchased tickets for Priest. It's a midnight show, therefore, we had 2 hours of free time, went to Yishun Safra as she wanted to play arcade. However, it was such a long time since i last been there and it has been closed down. =x Went to Yishun park to play swing instead. I guess she really has a thing with swing :) Still have an hour of time left, went to slack at 925. Finally, it's 11.35. Did not really enjoy the movie not because the movie sucks to the core. Throughout the movie, my mind was having battle to deciding whether i should place my arm over to her shoulder or not. In the end, i did nothing... The movie priest i would advise my friend not to watch. Overall, i only rate 1/5. Movie ended and by then, there were no more transport to Sembawang. Walked ourselves back to Sembawang. Halfway through saw Yishun Columbarium, we dared each other to go in to have a look. Ended up she was only braved enough to walked in 5m away from the main gate. Continued our journey back to Sembawang. Broached her many questions about why she wish to remain single and what are my chance to be with her, what does she thinks of me all those related questions. At the end of the day, she told me not to wait for her. This is a killer answer to me. My mood really sunk but to have to keep up the appearance i am fine. I guessed i asked her too much questions on that night. I will not give up on her. Hopefully, one day i will be able to touched her heart :')
~*Chase*~™
