.Saturday, May 21, 2011 ' 3:13 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
Past few days...
My mood of the day depends on someone who holds a special place in my heart. I guess she didn't realise how much it will affect me. Remember that 3 days ago, there was a disruption in M1 mobile service? It was the first time my friend said that i was hardworking. Reason being to keep myself busy so that my mind wont be making wild imagination. However, it's still hard to prevent myself from thinking of her. Often, my friends question me why am i so quiet. My standard answer will be tired to conceal the truth of missing her. At the end of the day, i am glad it was only technical problem from M1.
2 days before
My mood was alright during the day. However, during the night, she went to have movie with her friends. This didn't affect me much either. Waited for her to reply patiently for 2 hours +. The next one hour really makes me think a lot. Here's what came across my mind. From what i observed while i was out with her for a movie, after movie, her phone will instantly appear on her hand. On that night, i was hoping she would immediately reply my message after movie ended. This anticipation did not become reality. Instead, she only replied me when she reached home. The moment i received her message, i instantly became awake. Started to think about what's the reason for her to reply when she is only home. One of the reason i hope to be the least likely would be that she was out with a guy she has feeling for. As a result, she would avoid her phone to create a better impression. Her last message for the day was a dilemma. Should i be happy or sad?
It's has been nearly a week since i last met her. Initially, i won't have the chance to see her yesterday. Got to thank her birthday friend for leaving early. Asked out for a movie to have an extra glance on her. Movie was 2 hours ahead of the time we met. Had to find something to entertain her. Bought a deck of poker cards and had a session of Big 2 under a block near Yishun Safra. During the game, of course we will have conversation. However, sometimes silence to my words makes me sad. I really hope that i can changed to be a more interesting guy so that there would be many topic between us to talk. It's 11.35, time for us to head back to Yishun 10. The movie is a horror film but it doesn't seems scary enough to see her freaked out expression. Same as the previous time, no more public transport after movie ended. On our way back to Sembawang on foot, encountered a barking dog across the road. I can tell she was very afraid of it. Tried my best to calm her down and assured her nothing will happened.
From here i wish to tell you no matter what happen, i will be the guy to stand by your side to protect you. Wont allow you to get bullied by anyone else. I know it's hard for you to trust a guy due to your last relationship. Although it had left a scar on you, i wish i can be a tattoo to cover up your scar, stick to you and never be apart...
"I won't give my heart to anyone, but if you're brave enough, you can try to steal it" A sentence by you. I know i am not a professional thief to steal but with my sincerity, i hope i can get your heart not by stealing but earning it. Love you~
~*Chase*~™
