.Sunday, July 5, 2009 ' 6:08 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
4 July
Suffered from insomnia last night
Was pondering over and over whats wrong within this relationship
In the morning, clarified with Samella and she requested that we should not contact for the time being to let her calm down
This is quite a big blow to me
Felt very displeased with her mum
However, could not completely push the blame to her
I myself neglected Samella while she was mentally pressurized between her parent and I
Did not stay by her side to put myself under her shoe
Why is it everytime I am the one playing waiting game...
This is just pure kismet
Will we ever be together again?
This can only be a surreal thoughts
Unless her parent accept me and Samella has the state of mind to be with again
Before Samella and I were together
She once told me in a relationship failure
There will always be one party being hurt and tears swirling in the eyes
I refused to believe it and now this is true
She also told me before since she is my first partner
There will be many first time between us
First hold hand experience
First hug experience
First kiss experience
First warm experience
First love experience
And now
.
.
First never experienced before sorrowful pain
I guess i missed her too much
On the day we broke off, it is the 6th day since we met up
Even on the day she initiated that we separate, I was not with her
Although accepted but deep in my heart really do not wish to do so
This is such a harsh reality
Really wish to see her in person again
But now her action and behaviour are only memories...
If i had already know this ending
I rather not start all this
Although we were only together for a short time
It is very hard for me to put it down
I think this is what we call love
Love is like a wind
Comes and leaves in a twinkle of an eye
"You" said that we'll be friend first
And gave me an answer of "maybe" when i asked if there is anymore chance between us
I think i will wait for "you" since i am fated to wait all my life
Hope that "you" will read this post
Perhaps there is a second chance between us and i hope for it too
I guess it is not that you do not love me neither am i not suitable for "you"
It is just that "you" do not wish to upset your mum, thus making this difficult decision.
Lastly, really wish to know what "you" felt right after we broke off...
"You" seems to leave me clueless about it
Went out to ride assuage what i am experiencing
Bryson and KengHua came down to Yishun
Rode with them as well as BoonPin and Arthur
In the evening headed towards West with Andy, BoonPin and Bryson
Did something that you will do if you miss someone
Just to check if she is fine and reminisced memories with her
Went to woodlands mart to get a drink
Over there, happened to have a game machine to capture soft toy
Andy spent only $2 to capture one soft toy
Back to Yishun about 9+
Home about 12
~*Chase*~™
