.Wednesday, June 8, 2011 ' 10:12 PM Y
~Whip It Real Hard~
Sometimes, your actions dampen my mood without realising it. As a guy, i am the one always waiting for your reply. Although i know most of the time you were busy, therefore unable to reply promptly. However, it really makes me feel sad that you don't bother to reply when you are free. I am sure you had this kind of feeling before. I know i am not your boyfriend and
you are not oblige to reply me instantly. All i hope is that you will spare a thought for me and give me some of your attention and concern. All this while i have been trying hard to be the person that you will first remember everytime you touched you phone. It's seems hard to overcome the barrier for me to enter your heart to be that very person. One day, i hope my perseverance will gain your trust for me.
Everyday, i will be excited to receive your first message when i send out the greeting to you. Your reply determines my mood for the day. What i wished to see least is a one word reply from you. It's either you are in a bad mood or you are not interested to continue the conversation. But still i will try my best to make you speak more despite my affected mood. As long as you replied me, i will be contented. :)
On Sunday night, you disappeared. My mind can't stop thinking of you. Keep wondering what are you doing? Why didnt you reply? Usually, despite you are revising, you will still at least leave some replies but not that night. I called you later on, but you did not pick up, was wondering if you are avoiding on purpose? All these thoughts only made me feel worse. Around 11+, finally received a text from you. I apologised here for asking you so many questions because i care about you.
These few days you have been mugging non stop till late night. I am afraid that you may not get enough rest, thus compromising your health. Seriously, it doesn't feel good to see you pushing yourself so hard.
Your hectic life temporary put to a stop for a while after the CA on Wednesday. But due to your busy schedule, i was unable to confirm with you dinner on Wednesday's night. I am still glad that you save your Thursday's night for me to dine with you.
The next day, despite your friends were going for revision, you are still willing to give a miss as you said you promised me already. I was so happy to hear that but i think study is still important, therefore did not force you to have dinner with me. Nevertheless, still managed to see you for a while after your revision :)
On Saturday, i thought i would spend my weekend alone again, but was surprised that you asked me out for movie in the evening.
Wasn't feeling quite happy on Sunday. From my observation when i am out with you, you replied your message quite fast. But when you were out with your friend, i didnt get a quick reply from you. Maybe i am just jealous? Cos i am afraid to lose you but it is irony to feel this way when you are not even mine yet =x
I am sorry about what happened on Monday. Didnt mean to paranoid you after you have such a long day in school with a surprise mock test. Just wanna tell you that everytime, you MIA for a long time, i will definitely miss you a lot. However, all i can do is to wait. Sometimes wonder if you rather reply other people's message and ignore mine until you are free to reply. At the end of the day, i am the one thinking too much. I am glad that we did not end up in a quarrel. I will try not to agitate you anymore because i love you too much :)
~*Chase*~™
